I don't know why people are doing this to me. Is this to be the rest of my life? Everyone having a hold on me, threatening to shame me and to tear my life apart. I pray every night that God gives me one more day to be happy. I live in fear and shame. That the whole world knows what terrible person I am. I hear them mocking me, judging me. And I deserve it.
I completely and wholeheartedly deserve it.
Every time the phone rings, every time the phone beeps. My heart leaps into my mouth wondering of this is the day my world will fall apart.
I am married to a wonderful man. I am truly blessed. God gave me an angel and I spat in it's face. And I am so sorry.
If only I could turn back time.
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