Fading like a flower

Things have been looking up since that awful run almost a month ago.

Things have been going well. I have a beautiful home and family.

But deep inside, I feel as if I don't deserve it.

I feel like any moment now, life will pull the rug under me and I will be falling all over again.

I dont deserve to be happy.

I tell myself that i do, I do, I do deserve this.

But really, I don't.